aches and pains

My collar bone aches, my head is pounding and it is bitter cold outside my bedroom window. Each gust of wind makes the tree branches tap tap tap and scratch scratch scratch like a cat on the wrong side of the door. I can't ride a bike because of my shoulder. I can't drive a car because of my alcoholic tendencies, and now the last thing I want to do is wander out into the freezing winds and make my way to work on the soles of my shoes. What ever happened to blissful ignorance? What ever happened to waking up and having a warm breakfast waiting? We grow up so fast and never seem to even notice how much we change each day. How could we? Today my hair is longer than it was when I fell asleep, but no matter, there is nothing I can do to stop it. This used to tear at me. I always felt like I was living on someone elses stopwatch, like if I didnt get something done in a timely manner the world would end. Well, here I sit today, aching head, aching shoulder, my mind screaming and my heart beating, and I gotta say it's been one helluva ride so far, and no matter what the train keeps rolling.